HE Fills the Gap

We all have a gap. That space between our hopes and dreams and expectations and aspirations and reality. Cold hard reality. We try so hard to close the gap. Spending our time and energy and money trying to accomplish our goals to reach the true happiness that only comes from having what you’ve always wanted. Right? No. All wrong.

Only Christ can fill that gap. He not only fills it, but replaces it with something that is so much better than what we thought we wanted.

I learned this the hard way. In the past I wasted so much time chasing a great education and a cool job and picture perfect relationships because I thought they would ease my hunger for something more. Those are all good things on the surface. But they ARE surface.  My focus was on temporal things. I was longing for the admiration and approval of my friends and family and peers. The gap only widened because I wasn’t looking to Christ to fill it.

It wasn’t until I looked inward at my failures, brokenness and inadequacies and upwards to Christ that I had true peace and joy. Jesus met me where I was, and bridged my gap. He even changed what was on the other side. Now my hopes and dreams and expectations and aspirations are eternal.

God alone will meet all my needs. Psalm 84:11 spells it out for me.

For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord with give grace and glory; no good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly. Psalm 84:11

One thing is certain, Christ never breaks a promise. He delivers day after day. Meeting my needs and holding my hand through the hills and the valleys of life.

Unfortunately I had to learn how to lean on Him the hard way. I learned it by jumping on the treadmill of life and running as fast and as far as I could before realizing I was right back where I started. Tired, and empty.

But God didn’t leave me there. He chased this lost sheep down until he found me. In the emptiness there was a tug, a pull, a stirring that was undeniable. It was God calling me to him. One day I got on my knees and answered the call.

Everything changed. I found life and worth in the truth of the gospel. Jesus’ death and resurrection, and who I am in Him, have radically changed my life.

I learned I needed to give it all over to him. I needed to hand over my fears, anxieties, and inadequacies, along with my wants, desires and expectations. His love and acceptance of me were what mattered. What other people thought of me, and even what I thought of myself, were meaningless compared to who I am in Him. I am a precious, beloved, child of the King.

Oddly enough, one of my biggest lifelong battles has been the biggest reminder of his faithfulness to me. The horrible anxiety that I struggle with on a daily basis has forced me to keep looking up. Every day it reminds me to keep my eyes fixed on Christ. Right where they belong.

When I feel gripped with panic and fear, my favorite scripture in Isaiah comforts me like a warm blanket on a chilly day.

You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You. Trust in the Lord forever, For in Yah, the Lord, is everlasting strength. Isaiah 26:3-4

Keep your eyes on God when fighting your Goliath. Even if it seems like it’s a daily battle. He alone can sustain you. He pulls through for me every day and He will do the same for you.

Jessica Hundley

Jessica Hundley is a founding member and current leader of the original Agape Moms based in Lithia, Florida. Jessica loves spending time with her husband Scott, and their toddler Haley Margaret. Jessica moved to Florida from Massachusetts five years ago, and never looked back! She loves sharing the good news about Jesus by telling others how the truth of gospel has radically changed her life.