Finding Light in the Darkness

To the mother of a colicky newborn,

I see you standing by the crib, frozen with emotions too frenzied for words.

Not knowing why the screams won’t stop.

Knowing that you can barely take it anymore.

The walls are closing in.

The waves of exhaustion are rocking your body.

The tears come.

You sit down because you can barely stand.

The room is dark, and the screams continue.

You can’t make them stop.

You have tried everything, and nothing works.

You have cried out to God, and in your dark haze, doubted he heard your call.

Jessica HundleySeptember 6, 2018Trials, Motherhood

Waiting on God for a Baby

t has been a difficult and rather humbling year. After quickly getting pregnant with our first and second child, waiting almost two years to become pregnant this time… well it felt like a very long time. I know it may not seem like a long time compared to those who have been in a season of waiting for many years, but it was still a season in which I struggled and questioned God at times. The longer time went by, the more I felt that God surely was closing this door for us to grow our family. This season of waiting tested my faith.

Carolina BriggsAugust 21, 2018Infertility, Waiting on God, Answered Prayer, Trials

Baby Steps

“My daughter was crawling by nine months. She was walking one month later and running by her first birthday.” “Mine too” another momma responded. I was sitting in a mall play area as a group of mothers talked about the timing of their kiddos big milestones. I smiled and nodded appropriately. My 18 month old daughter stood by me, holding both my hands. I wanted to share my story with these sweet mommas but something was holding me back. I didn’t want to tell them about my daughter’s struggles. Or mine. I didn’t want them to judge me. I didn’t want to tell them how I sometimes judged myself.